The Hidden Geek

When I'm low in spirit A voice comes to me in the creeping pain It speaks words of lies And it speaks false things "Look at the world" it whispers softly "Look at her and him and them. Look at their blessing and what God's given them. You told me your waiting on the Lord, But where is your blessings? You said you kept yourself pure But where is your reward? You said that waiting is your sacrifice to God But why isn't he answering? Your friends are married Younger and older Your neice will probably be next  But what about yours? Where's your spouse? Why isn't he coming? Your getting old. Maybe you trust on God for nothing. Maybe he's not coming And it was all a lie Maybe you did something To mess everything up. What if God doesn't care? Why is he testing and blessing others? Others know God's will Others know their talents But you hop from home To home Living with your parents or sister You dont have your own home Or your own family either ...

Staying calm in the storm It's something people have said It's something we are taught by others Saying you need to know God is in the storm But to stay calm in the storm isn't exactly what you think It's not about blindly staying calm when chaos erupts It's much more than that Staying calm in the storm is more about knowing Knowing God is in the storm and also controlling it It's about knowing that God won't allow the storm to do more then it was allowed And sometimes It's about the fact that God prepared you for the storm It's how He showed you the storm Before the storm even came How He showed you the puzzle pieces before fixing the puzzle He shared with you the events before the events unfolded He prepared you not to panic when everything seems to be slipping How He taught you to be aware of what will come but maybe not when God shows His people the future He shows them how things will be He reminds them that it will happen But not only does He d...

What is hurting your heart? Why do you cry Lord? Why are you troubled? What can I do to help? I feel God's hurt It comes from down deep I can't explain the pain When my Father cries It's from deep within Sorrow wells up And I'm stuck wondering why Is it from the church? Or possibly from me? Is it from the hurt of others? Why do you cry Lord? I asked those questions Wanting to understand your sorrow And an answer you gave Your own children don't want you Your own children don't hear you Your own children don't know you They live on their daily lives Their daily routines They seek to be higher in status Thinking rules will save them They build their own castles Their own temples before you They sacrifice time and energy Because religion says so From their hearts they desire more More money, more members, more temples They want to be in charge of others While their own homes are in chaos They want to rule over people So they can set their own rules and regulati...

To those who dig and search Discoveries are made To those who are open minded New knowledge seeps in To those who practice forgiveness Others sins can't penetrate in To those who practice Righteousness The Lord they invite in To those who question the world Answers come from above To those who spend time with God His true Character is revealed To those who listen intently They store wisdom in their hearts To the people who Repent daily The Father is drawn near them To those who practice Humility God's guidance is strong To those who practice Holy Love The Loving Kindness of God fills every dark spot To those who keep the sanctity of marriage There home is open to the Father To those that love nature God teaches with creation To those who trust God in times of fear Lords Boldness is given To those who seek God's true Character Confidence in Him abides forever The one True God Is the God above others The One True God Is the Father of Jesus The one True God Was abused for reli...

I once thought I live right I thought everything was good Years prior I met God Years prior I served diligently I saw truth for truth And saw lies unfolding My eyes met with the sins of my heart Then I let my heart disown them I was clean as can be Always striving for purity Being diligent to obey When God's voice spoke to me softly Persecution was strong  But with God I was stronger He held up my hands  And my prayer was enlightened So near He was Like the wind blowing around me My mind was on Him Day and night as I meditated on Him But when things got too much The pressure overwhelming  Things seemed to crash From the weight of my surroundings Instead of still fasting Instead of continuing in Him A bit of me gave up And started spiraling backwards I fell to my knees  Like a soldier defeated I sank so very deep His thoughts, I couldn't hear them The deeper I went The more sin overshadowed me My spirit felt dead And my soul cried for mercy But through all the pain My...

My soul yearns My eyes water I thirst for you I hunger for more Complete me Lord Take control Mold me Like clay to a pot Make use of my life Make my spirit rejoice Clean me like silver So I reflect your image Sharpen me like a sword So I slice through my worries Harden me like diamonds So my strength comes from you I yearn, I cry My soul is weary My spirit is chasing Chasing to be near you Hold me close Cover me under your wings Give rest to my soul Give peace to my spirit Cloth me in your righteousness Your blood has purchased me I long to be used Open my eyes to your love Straighten my road So my foundation will be true I seek and shall find Your presence is by my side Carry me home When my journey is done My Saviour, my true Love A bride I shall be When my time has come

 I Believe that soon, everyone will know who is a Luke-warm Christian and who is a true Follower of Christ. The people will be separated just the way God separates the Sheep from the Goats.  If you haven't been paying attention to the world lately, life may seen fine and normal but even i would be dumbfounded to find out that someone doesn't know or see anything that's been going on.  Train derailments, Toxins in the air, 15 Minute-Cities being prepared, Farms burning up, Rumors of Famines, Transgender/ Same Sex/ LGBTQ+... stuff that's been going around. So many conspiracies coming to light, and Etc. So much is going on and everyone is saying that we are living in the end times. My Thoughts...? Well, I do believe we are in the end times because Bible prophesies are being fulfilled but in all this chaos, The Lord always tells me to focus on Him and live life. Now living life doesn't mean not getting ready for His return. In fact, it means the exact opposite. It means...

Joy, love, and peace in me The world in chaos but my peace will remain I know the earth is burning but my focus stays It stays on your word, it stays in your hands Your holding me tight, taking my worries away I'm wrapped in your arms, your breath in me You tell me to wait, you tell me to pray The worries leave and your presence appears Keep my heart pure and keep my mind clear So I keep seeking you till the day that I leave I'm a traveler here, my home is elsewhere I'm just here to bring your kingdom to reign The Lord is my Shephard, he guides through the night The darkness will flee when your by my side My nights will be peaceful My days will be bright My suffering can't compare to the pain you took of mine My sins you forgave, by blood I was cleansed No longer a sinner but a Saint in your name Rejoice with me friends, rejoice for the Lord He saved me from sin and save you he shall He is merciful and pure, clean as can be The judge of the world and my king he shall be

     So lately I haven't posted any blogs because I was more focused on my small YouTube channel where I create art and preach about what I learn from the Lord in my own way.       In doing so, I'm kept busy creating new content and forcing more on what the Lord wants me to teach and not just to talk about him randomly. When I'm creating those videos, there is not much need in blogging because I can explain everything with my own voice vs. Writing it all out.       But lately, I have put my channel on hold because I recently moved across the country and have no room or space to keep creating and recording my art. Since then, I have seen myself drift further from Christ and being occupied with life, earning a living, preparing for my future plans and so on. I will not say that being prepared for life and setting goals is a bad things but when it keeps you focused on life and living and unfocused on Christ, then some changes need to b...

Lies have been told Suffering has taken hold Secrets created Evil is present The world in turmoil  The people confused Leaders have fallen The evil arises  When is enough? The people will perish The Lord will come soon But who will fight for him? Stand and await The light will shine through The clouds will be parted The fight will come soon We are the warriors We will stand through Prepare your sharp swords Sharpen the truth Wake up and dress up The armor of truth The shield for the war The shoes will guide you Our Lord has finished Praise God for his salvation All arise in one unity This world will soon parish 

What is this "me" culture? What is this "you"? You walk so blindly But say it's light Now I won't be bashing I won't be loud I stand and knock Watching that very clock Tiktok it goes Ticking the time away Waiting for your praise But the praise never came You sing of me But you sing for yourself You sing to share The gift that you got But when you "praise" me You get the praise instead Centered around me? You say As your voice lifted up But for those who don't sing For those who are shy Why are you scared? To sing praises in my name? Because you're not good? Your voice is not there? I hear my people sing But themselves do they praise Where does your song come from? From the heart or from the voice? Do you not understand? The heart praises me the most How good you can sing How high you hold that note Beautiful that voice Like a crystal in its purest form Though your voice may be lovely And your praised in my home Your purest voice is from...

My Jesus My Jesus You come to us now You come to us here As we sleep through the night The dark seems so bright But its all in our minds Our eyes are too closed As we shut them so tight Where has the time gone? Where are we now? Why are we sleeping, As the world goes around? You told us to wait To keep watch all through the night Yet we have slumbered And been careless. Thats right! We closed our eyes Our ears cannot hear The parables you speak The lessons not clear Oh mighty God! Wake us from this sleep So we can sow seeds And wake those in need Praise God everyone!

We make mistakes We carry our faults We hate, we yell, we scream We push and shove We curse each other Even saying "you can't do it. You won't make it" It's still cursing. We take what we want And say what we want We make sure we have enough first Before giving to others We fight all the time We feel sorry for ourselves Even though the world Is crashing all around us How can we So broken and violent And hateful and slothful Ever demand so much from others? We don't have the right To just take and take And rarely give We cry and ask "Where is God?" "Why won't he listen?" "Why doesn't he do something?" "And why does he let all this stuff go on?" The truth is We push him away We keep pushing And demand our way And then wonder why he's gone The world he created Doesn't even want him Then it wonders where he's at It wonders Where he went Or if he even exists How do we expect someone to stay In a place we d...

Want to know who the most miserable people on earth are? Before I just go out there and tell you all... I want to say something first. This is something I learned from one of my sisters. She happen to stumble upon a video on YouTube one day and decided to watch it. The video was really intriguing to her and so she had me listen to it as well. It was a short video but it still had a lot to say that would really get you thinking... So when she listened to the video, it made sense and changed her perspective on life because the most miserable people on earth are..... Christian's who live self serving. Yup! That's it! Those are the most miserable people on earth. If you want to know why, keep reading and I'll explain. So it happens to be like this. When a person becomes a Christian and they repent and get baptised and start their life as a believer, God changes their hearts. He takes out their stone hearts and replaces them with a heart of flesh "I will give you a n...

This last year was fun to say the least. It was also difficult, arguably the most difficult one I've had in a while. This last year brought me lots of hardships, heartbreaks, anxiety, loneliness, pain, struggles, defeat, sadness, stress like never before, worry and the list goes on and on... But it also brought tons of new opportunities, change, i learned so much, I've seen so much, had adventures and explored myself more than anything. I left my comfort zone so much that i hate being in it. I made tons of new friends and left a few down the road. I cried more tears this year than any other but i felt more joy and peace than before. My relationship with God was a bit rocky to be honest but i know it will never be perfect so i'm going to keep growing still. I changed myself more than anything and my love for others and for my friends and family and church has grow as well. There's just too much that happened and if i write it all here, you guys would stop reading ...

When I was little, I always had this image of a rectangular box in my mind. The box was just there in a dark room and light was only around the box and I stood next to the box. Every time someone came by, they were curious about my box so I would open it up and reach in. I would grab out an item from the box and hand it to them with a smile. The person would then take the item and look at it and play with it and in the end they either threw it or broke it or damaged it and then they left. Leaving the damaged item on the floor. I would get down on my knees and pick up the broken pieces and sweep them back into the box with tears in my eyes. As time passed, others would come and being curious and I would show them an item from the box but over and over again, they would just give it back damaged and I would cry while putting the pieces in my box. I started becomes hesitant to open the box. Started being more cautious. People would come and sometimes I never opened the box and after t...

Dear Jesus, Dear Jesus, My Savior, my friend. I come to your presence to seek as I am my trust and my shield you are my right hand forever in me, I keep your commands I come to your presence, I come seeking truth you see through my weakness and help me bear fruit I rest my head steady on you grasps my roots, I vanish in me to bring out all of you I come to take rest, and refuge in you I come to bear witness of your healings too your power so great, your love oh so strong in me they shine through like a spark in the dark glorify not me but you every day and keep me humble for these mighty days "God's warrior i am" to you I will say "strong and aware for each blazing glare" the night I pray loud the day I sleep out to break all the forces of witches here now hold me tight and guide my heart so i may be useful when hardships crawl out praises I'll sing the stories I'll share of how you helped seeds become mighty tre...

You fill my heart You calm my soul Your spirit gives me patience Where I walk There you go Lighting my path to you Darkness can't harm me The shadows are gone Your peace fills every corner Enemies can't touch me Rumors don't budge me I stand steady on my rock so true Praise be to God Praise to the Almighty Who filled the earth with his creations You gave authority to man And broke the chains of sin The slaves are now your children How wonderful is my God The God of the Bible The God of all creation I will praise your name forever more Be in me A light forever A poem to my God and Savior Jesus Christ 😀 Praise and Glory belong to him alone!

I told my youngest brother once that you can learn something from everything you do. Even if it seems meaningless. Well here's a story i wanted to share with you all today about the kingdom of God. First i will tell you a story of what happened to me today. I went to work today and i work at a car rentals in an airport location. I'm what they call a "counter agent" and i make sure things are in order and i rent people our cars and explain the policy and make sure the customers understand the responsibilities they have when renting a car. In order to even rent a car, the first thing i check for before i even quote someone a rate or use a reservation that a customer has set up is if they qualify to even rent a vehicle. By qualify i mean; do they have a valid drivers license and a major credit card that matchs (meaning the driver of the vehicle has to be present and has to pay for the vehicle with his/her card.) No debit cards unless they are flying out of the airp...

Humans... We make the mistakes. We carry our faults. We hate, we yell, we scream. We push and shove away. We curse each other. Even saying "you can't do it. there's no way." It's still cursing. Still showing your hate. We take what we want and say what we want. We make sure we have enough first before giving to others. We fight all the time and we feel sorry for ourselves even though the world is crashing all around us. How can we, imperfect beings, so broken and slothful, ever demand so much from others? We don't have the right to just take and take...but rarely give a dime and step out in good faith. We cry and ask "Where is God? Why won't He listen? Why doesn't he do something? And why does he let all this stuff go on?" The truth is...We pushed him away. We keep pushing him away and demand our way and then we wonder why he's gone. Why he's left us to our pain. I had a question asked to me once. I was asked what else can o...