Satana Lies (Poem #16)

When I'm low in spirit

A voice comes to me in the creeping pain

It speaks words of lies

And it speaks false things

"Look at the world" it whispers softly

"Look at her and him and them.

Look at their blessing and what God's given them.

You told me your waiting on the Lord,

But where is your blessings?

You said you kept yourself pure

But where is your reward?

You said that waiting is your sacrifice to God

But why isn't he answering?

Your friends are married

Younger and older

Your neice will probably be next 

But what about yours?

Where's your spouse?

Why isn't he coming?

Your getting old.

Maybe you trust on God for nothing.

Maybe he's not coming

And it was all a lie

Maybe you did something

To mess everything up.

What if God doesn't care?

Why is he testing and blessing others?

Others know God's will

Others know their talents

But you hop from home To home

Living with your parents or sister

You dont have your own home

Or your own family either

You have a job

But still you have nothing

Where's all your money

Your savings or items?

Everything vanishes in your hands

Your not a great example

Noone likes you

Noone wants to be around you

Your a failure

A loser

A nobody

And you have nothing

How embarrassing you are

I bet your sister doesn't even like you

Your parents stopped talking to you

Once you became useless 

You can't help them anymore

So they stopped calling or texting

Your friends never invite you anywhere

Since you left and moved

Everyone is moving on

But your stuck in the same position

You dont do anything for the church

You can't even help your sister

What kind of helper are you?

You suck at doing anything

Your useless and pitiful

You cry all the time

You dont even know how to be grateful

What a simple thing to do

But for you it's hard work

You just get jealous

And it's eating you up inside

Just give up already

Run away or just give up.

Whats the point anymore?

Just go and save everyone your burdens"

These words came at me hard

They try to make me stumble

And it's true, I dont know

All the plans God's got for me

But still, I will hold on

I dont let these get me

Because my God is faithful

And He knitted me together

He said He loved me

And He promised me blessing

He said my waiting is a sacrifice

Worthy of all His attention

He didn't forget me

He didn't leave me

He gave me strength

And a little more patience

Life is hard

I have to admit

Sometimes unbearable

Because of all these things

To not have friends near me

To start life all over

To not have a partner 

To run with on this journey

But I know God is faithful

I know He'll come through

He told me over and over

To thank Him for everything

He promises to keep promises

He won't back out

And I cry to Him all my problems

So He can touch my troubled heart

I'm still growing

Still searching

For only His will

God you have comforted me

When my wounds didn't heal

You cleaned my scrapes and scratches

You treated my hurt

You showed me your grace

And you showed me my worth

I'm worthy

I'm His

I'm loved and I'm cleaned

I'm being make stronger

I'm being transformed

The process might be slow 

But it's still transforming my soul

Thank you God

Thank you Jesus

Thank you for everything

Whether good or bad

Nothing went to waste

In your hands all this time

I truly am grateful

I see many blessings

Sometimes I'm not clear minded

But you clear up my thoughts

I draw closer to you

And you draw closer to me

You remind me who I am

And you speak gently to me

Your words are comforting

And they slice through the storm

You always guard my back

Even when I fall

My hope is in you

My strength is all you

When I'm weak

I'm the strongest

Because you strengthening my feet

I know you are here

I know you are near

Till my last breath

I will serve the Lord

As I promised many times

As long as your with me always